Saturday, December 19, 2009

The MC

The MC

What am I doing here?
Is it where I?m to be?
Why do I fear?
When you are guiding me!

Questions of character and love come my way;
But with you beside me I know I can say:
"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:28-31
So now I will go to the places you show
To love and listen because that?s all I know.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


Meditation: I was able to go to a Meditation time at a center in Mill Valley last night. No talking for an entire hour. The instructions were just that, let you mind go, but i couldn't. I found myself singing praise songs and praying to the Father the one who shows wisdom and compassion and wants us to do the same. No ...self revelation/realization. So now i must confess, the center was a buddhist center where each tuesday night people come for a time of meditation to focus on themself. To let their mind go to a no thinking state, but i find this hard to believe, we are a thinking people and we are never without thought, even in our dazing we are thinking about something whether it be real or fantasy. Any way, the value of silence is soooo necessary. I enjoied the time talking to the Creator of all things and listening to the beautiful melodies my heart was singing to Him.

So i posted the above on a facebook group i am a part of and here is a response from a good friend Mr. B:

I find myself feeling the same as you on this topic. It is extremely difficult, if not impossible, to persist to think about nothing. The fact that we dream (intense brain activity in the midst of unconsciousness) should lead us to see the difficulty of conscious non-thinking. I do love how your time in silence brought you to ... See Morepraise in the presence of God. Perhaps there is something in the spiritual realm to notice here. Maybe it is that when one has surrendered his/her self to God, that the Holy Spirit is always working to point that persons life back to the praise of the Father. And perhaps those who have not surrendered as such, and continue to worship their own spirit/self only have their own quiet and empty spirit to look to in times of silence.

So what now? My challenge is that i continue to take time, YES TIME, to meditate in silence on who God is and what He has done in my life. Meditation is a good thing, my prayer is that the people i met at this place will be able to have their eye's opened to the true God of the universe. I'm not sure if i will go back, but if so, i hope to share more of whose I am!

Thanks for reading you few who follow me! Have a wonderful thanksgiving and blessing to all!

Friday, November 20, 2009

New Moon

Last night and this morning as thousands of happy Twilight fans across America sat in line and waited for midnight to come, I would like to let you know, i too was one of those giddly people waiting for the movie to start.

The theater in which i saw the movie had four showings 12:01, 12:05, 12:10, and12:15 of which all were full.

Without giving some of the movie away an interesting situation arose as we watched with giddy screams, as the first time Jacob took his shirt off (and oh those lovely muscles were nice and tight and for the most part every girls dream) all the oxygen left the room, in the midst of all this a love story enfolds.

This love as most love storys goes has tragedy, and when that tragedy came many in the theater had very damp eyes. The two girls sitting next to me, during these scenes, you could hear sobbing and grasping of air. Comical as it may seem, I too at times felt the well of emotion in the form of tears welling in my eyes.

As the researcher in me loves watching people I couldn't help but notice the joy and elation on girls and guys' faces when we were told to "follow me."
This makes me wonder back when Jesus was around and he came up to people and said these very same words if elation, joy, excitment, wonder, mystery was in the minds of those he called in this wall.

something to think on more.

Ta ta for now!! have a wonderful weekend!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Que descanse en paz

Rest in Peace Cavi! She has been a great car, and now off to parts land! Just an update on my car!

She is dead :(. With all the men that looked at my car, and they all have said one thing or another that we have all check to make sure those things were working correctly, we have come to the understanding that Cavi just doesn't work anymore. So this week i have contacted via email a local pick n pull shop to see how much they are willing to pay for my dear car that has been with me now for 10 years!

With that, i am now in need of a new/used car. Please pray that one will come available at the price I am able to pay!

Thanks and hope you have an excellent day!

Thursday, November 5, 2009


SO this may be more of a rant than anything, but sometimes i just wish people would be a little more considerate of others. I know I am not always considerate and very selfish at times, but i feel/think that i try to put others first before myself.

I don't know.....

ok bye!

Friday, October 23, 2009


So I'm going to write in a new font or so i hope it's in a different font than the other posts I have posted so far!!

Something to think about.....When people ask you how's it going or how are you, are they just asking to be nice or are they truly wanting to spend 5-10 minutes actually listening to you about how your life is going?

I find it interesting when people come up to the window at my work and ask me that question. I start telling them how I am and then the next thing that happens to me is that they start talking about something else. Now, I'm not venting or anything, but find it interesting that not all but some do this to me. Is it just me or are there other people this happens to? OK, on to something else!

Yesterday I was able to hear a speaker, John Thomas, from Capetown South Africa. He by far is one of the most interesting and well spoken speakers I have heard this semester. Some of the things that are still resonating with what he said and how I'm trying to understand what the words he spoke mean for my life. First Lesson for me to grab hold of: Compassionate Action! This is who Jesus was! He was a compassionate actioner(i know not a real word)! He was able to all things will compassion and conviction to tell those who had fallen short of God's glory about the way to redemption. Question: Do I live my life that way? gonna have to say not so much! Yes, on some days more than others, but each and everyday nope!

Another thing i have to understand: "People listen to people who help them" meaning people who help people are more willing to listen to that person's story, etc because of the "love/attention" they have shown the person needing the help. Do I help people?

Last and most notably: You cannot separate the GOSPEL(the Word of GOD) from Compassionate Action!

What do you think people out in the blogosphere! Know that you are loved, and know that I am here to be a friend.

OK, probably should get back to work!! Have a wonderful/fantastic/amazing/beautiful weekend!


Thursday, September 17, 2009


So, on Saturday I was headed towards Okland. I was going to the Wal-Mart there to get someone to look at my car. On the way however my car decides to stop! I was able to pull it to the side, but unfortunately the side of the road was the Richmond Bridge!! It was a fascinating thing. The rush and power of being stranded on a bridge is something i don't wish for anyone, but at the same time it was soooo cool!

It got towed back to school due to some gracious friends who have TRIPLE A! Now i'm on day six without using a car and it's been good. Yes, I haven't done that much, but it has allowed me to think and read and do things i normally don't do because I'm out and about doing whatever I want.

Being confined, and i wouldn't really say confined, becasue i have ample availabilities to do what i need has been good for me. It has given me a chance to slow down, remember who has the ultimate power and that through all circumstance i am joyfull.

Yes, it's been crazy without having a car, but i've also been blessed by so many people offering rides and cars if i need them. I need to remember that there is always someone willing to help! Thanks God for showing me your mercy and grace and love from all my friends and family who care for me!

Day 6 and still no car, meeeh. People have seen it hopefully diagnosed the problem and this weekend hopefully will be able to atleast start working on the problem.

I'm off to work now. Hope all you out there in the www :) have a wonderful day!


Monday, August 31, 2009


it's been a while since my last post. i unfortunately don't even know. Today starts a new direction in my life. I have been asked to start up a youth ministry within the church i am now a member. I am excited on the one hand a very nervous. Please pray for this exciting time in my life as i seek the Lord's direction for the youth of Marin City.

God is so good to place this task before me. I hope i am faithful to complete my small part of the process.

Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009


The song by Shane and Shane In You was what I woke to. Here is the chorus:

"In YouI find my rest.In YouI find my death.In YouI find my all and my emptiness,Somehow it all makes sense."

Very interesting point for me is that I only woke up to the part where it says "In you I find my rest." Am I resting in God's Word and on him daily?? I have to say no. I fail everyday. I struggle with this everyday. Resting in the Word and on Him for strength for the day that I know only He can give to me.

I am not a perfect person and I know that! Somehow it does make sense that God knows exactly what I need for the day and what I need to do is follow that without hesitation and with joy!

Hope you have a wonderful day and let me know how I can be a help to you.


Wednesday, February 18, 2009

About Time

Well....Since my last post in July i thought about writing something that has been on my mind, also to start in a sense journaling some things.

"because he worked for the good of his people and spoke up for the welfare of all the Jews." This is from Esther 10 regarding Mordecai. I have been in the book and just finished it this morning. This is the last sentence of the book. He was held in high esteem becasue of the work he did for others.

Just imagine if we did this?? What would that even look like? It is interesting to me to see how God shapes his people. My this be our prayer that people see Christ in us by the work for good and the way we speak for the welfare of all people.

I am starting this venture to work for good and speak for the people. Hopefully my labor will be fruitful and kingdom shaping.

Today the song in which i started singing when i woke up this morning was a song by Ross King: GREAT IS YOUR LOVE. " I will praise you oh lord my God, with all of my heart, I will Glorify your name forever! Great is your, love to me, you have delivered me!"

How good and pleasant it is to start the day off with this and then read in His word how he delivered his people from annihilation from Haman.

Have a wonderful day, and my hope is that I will be able to write a new insight into my life tomorrow.